Invitation to Mystery
Definition of mystery from Merriam Webster online dictionary
1 a : a religious truth that one can know only by revelation and cannot fully understand .2a : something not understood or beyond understanding :
When I first started this blog, I thought of mystery as something as positive only. The beauty of creation, the wonder of redemption-something so marvelous it cannot be fully understood or even recognized through cognition. It is something perceived by the soul and yet still not fully realized, leaving one longing for more.
Yet there is mystery also in suffering. There are no answers for why I struggle, despite medication, with depression, anxiety, and ADD. There is no known reason for my monthly hormone fluctuations that contribute to my depression, and will not allow me to carry children even with treatment. Why my husband and I are unable to afford the approximately 30K it takes to adopt a baby.
Yet there are unmerited blessings too- my struggles have gotten so much better-I have been off Lithium now for three years. I have been at the same place of employment for 3+ years and have gotten a raise. My husband has a new 4-day work schedule with many opportunities for voluntary overtime. We also found (by His grace) a very affordable new beautiful 2 bedroom apartment. We are now able to have pets and have adopted a five year old 14 pound white poodle mix. These blessings too are a beautiful mystery.
This blog is about human frailty, the struggles we face, the answers we don’t have and the promises in Christ we do have and cling to. Writing helps me to see the big picture and remember to trust in the unseen hand of God and embrace hope. This is my invitation to join me in unraveling the mystery of a lifetime-one that cannot be solved, not until our final chapter. My guess is that life is a good read-Because God writes our story, and he writes His words, His love in our hearts. Amen